Price of Deceit by Mulderslady DISCLAIMER: They don't belong to me, wish they did. Only Skyler Wilson, Kaja, and Jade Fox RATING: R but turns NC-17 quickly CLASSIFICATION: S, A, MSR, Pseudo-Slash, MS married, Mental MT KEYWORDS: MSR, Scully and Mulder angst, Pseudo-Slash, MS married, Mental MT SPOILERS: none FEEDBACK: Please!!! at damaciaj@home.com ARCHIVE: Oh yeah, anywhere!! SUMMARY: After Five years of marriage, Mulder does something that may destroy it all. Note from the author: There is a slash scene, You've been warned!! I usually write MSR with a dash of MT. Price of Deceit is what I call a pseudo-slash endeavor. This means Mulder is Bisexual and involved with Scully, but some sexual situations are slash. Hope you like it. ****************************************************************************** And I would not let myself believe that you might stray . . . I thought I'd be with you until my dying day, until my dying day Plenty by Sarah M. ****************************************************************************** Mulder pulled her closer to him and snuggled in. Five years, our Five-year wedding anniversary is tomorrow. Five years with the most beautiful woman in the world. I loved her the day she walked into my hotel room in only her underwear. I proposed after her recovery from her abduction by Duane Barry. To my surprise she accepted. Two weeks later we were married, we've been happily married ever since. There have been some rough patches, when her sister died, her cancer, Emily, Diana, but all in all we've had an ideal marriage, aliens, conspiracies, and flukemen aside. She balances me like nothing else. So why am I holding her, the woman I love and promised to love for the rest of my life, and thinking about him? Skyler Wilson, commentary writer for the Post. Tall, muscular build, curly black hair, mint green eyes. Skyler Wilson writhing under me as I pumped into him harder, finding my release. He's been my lover for 3 months, 3 long heavenly months. I don't know what draws me to him, but I just can't get enough of him. God Forbid Scully ever finds out. I have to break it off with him soon before she even gets suspicious. I'd never want to lose her over this. What Skyler and I have is purely physical but what I have with Scully is on a higher plain. Without it I'd have no soul, no reason to continue here. June 16th, Mulder and Scully's Anniversary-- FBI headquarters Scully walked into their basement office to be greeted by 3 dozen white, red, and yellow roses. Scully smelled them and opened the card. 'To my one in 6 billion, For putting up with me for Five years Love FWM' Scully smiled, he remembered. She bent to smell the roses again when the phone rang. "Scully" "Agent Scully you have another delivery up in AD Skinner's office." Scully smile widened. "I'll be right up." Kim smiled at her as she entered the office. "Some one loves you, Five dozen roses. I've seen pink before but never this orangish color. Are all these from Agent Mulder?" "Yeah, it's our anniversary today." Kim admired the flowers as Scully opened the note which simply read, Dearest Dana, I love you FWM' Scully leaned into smell the roses, when her eyes caught a glimpse of something in the bouquet. "What's this?" Scully said reaching in carefully, pulling out a small velvet box. Scully opened it slowly, gasping when she saw the delicate emerald necklace it contained. "Oh Wow! That's beautiful Agent Scully." "I know, it's too . . . WOW!" Scully said as she laid it back in the box, pocketing it quickly and picking up her flowers. "Thanks Kim" She said as she walked proudly out the door, her arms full of flowers. Mulder smiled as he watched her walk in the office, her arms full of flowers "Hey happy anniversary Scully." Scully smiled at him, put the flowers down on her desk and went to him, giving him a big kiss on the lips "I thought you wanted to keep it professional at work." Mulder teased "That was before my partner gave me Five dozen roses, and this gorgeous necklace. Put it on for me." She said handing it to him. "Like it?" Mulder said clasping it around her neck. "Of Course! Come here." Scully said pulling him to her lips, capturing his mouth with hers. She suckled his bottom lip lightly, his tongue started to enter her mouth when they heard a deep throat clearing and broke away. "Sir?" Mulder said, absent-mindedly brushing an errant strand of Scully's fiery hair out of her face, as he turned to face Skinner. "I'm sorry to interrupt. I just wanted to let you know that I've took the liberty of giving you two a couple of vacation days this week starting as of Five minutes ago. I don't want to see you two here till next Monday. Call it my anniversary present." Skinner said smiling at them "Yes sir thank you." Skinner nodded and turned to leave "Oh one more thing . . ." He started, stopping when he saw them locked in another passionate embrace. "Oh never mind." he said as he returned to his office. The Mulder's Apartment Mulder pinned her against the hallway wall and grinded into her. "Oh man I want you, need you so bad Scully." He whispered to her as he quickly undid his shirt and tie and pushed down his pants. Scully undid her bra as Mulder pushed down her stockings and panties. He pushed up her skirt and lifted her gently onto him. Mulder groaned loudly and braced himself against the wall. Scully wrapped her legs around him and held onto him tightly as he started to thrust into her hard and fast. "Oh God Scully, you feel so good. I can't get enough of you. Oh yes!!" Mulder said getting louder as his excitement grew, "Scully , Scully, Scully oh Scccuullllllllleeeee!!!!!" He screamed as he came hard and fast, slumping against her when it was over. She slid down the wall as he collapsed on the floor. Mulder's breaths were ragged "I'm sorry I couldn't wait Scully. I'll make it up to you in a minute." "I know Mulder, its okay. If I knew you were this wired, I would have given you a little something to tide you over before we got home." "You know, I just got very turned on." Scully giggled then stopped when she felt him kiss her right above her navel. He smiled at her and parted her legs more as his head disappeared between them. 7 am Scully laid in his arms content and a little sore. He's been rough with me lately. Not that I don't enjoy it, but the morning after was painful. It's probably just a phase or something, he probably wanted a little variety. Just lately he's been acting like we're newlyweds. He's constantly aroused, grinding against me at the most inopportune times. She still remembered there last raid together. In full swat gear, waiting in the woods for the signal to charge, and he was grinding into her hip like a dog in heat. She was glad other agents were around or he probably would have tried to take her right there. She wanted to keep it professional at work, but lately he was making it very hard. I wonder what's got him so aroused all the time? Is it me? Or is it something else? Mulder started to grind a very hard morning erection into her thigh and Scully started to laugh. "God Mulder you are one horny bastard." Mulder smiled and kissed her hungrily as he entered her. "What's wrong? Why are you so keyed up recently?" " You're just the perfect aphrodisiac." Scully laughed and kissed his neck tenderly, then moving to kiss his favorite spot under his chin. He let out a whimper and thrust into her harder. As he pulled away from her, he said in a voice dripping of post coital bliss "Good Morning Scully." Scully laughed and kissed him gently on his forehead. "Hey did you give me my anniversary present yet?" "I thought I just did." Scully teased till Mulder threw her a sardonic look " I forgot to pick it up last night. I was otherwise occupied. You can come with me to pick it up today if you want." Mulder nodded and purred contentedly as he rested his head on her chest, her fingers playing in his hair. Later Who's that with Mulder? Why is he holding her hand and looking at her like that? Skyler thought as he sipped his mocha cappuccino at the corner coffee shop. His eyes narrowed with anger when Mulder pulled Scully into a passionate kiss. They walked over to the Coffee shop, Mulder's face beamed with Post coital satisfaction as he kissed her on the cheek. He placed his hands on her shoulders and followed her to the counter, a flash of gold catching Skyler's eye. He looked at it closer to find it was a wedding ring. Married? He's married? I should have known, no wonder he hasn't come to see me recently. "You're a coffee addict Scully." He heard him say to the woman in his beautiful gravelly monotone. Well let's have some fun with him Skyler thought smiling ruefully "Mulder! Hey Mulder!" Mulder turned to see Skyler waving at him, his eyes widened, dang busted. "Hey Skyler! I'll be right back honey ok?" "Sure" Scully said sipping her coffee happily Mulder walked over to Skyler quickly, "What are you doing here?" "I should ask you the same thing. Your wife?" Skyler said looking over at Scully "Yes, it's our anniversary. Our boss gave us the rest of the week off." "Using it well I see. Don't you think you should have told me about her before we became involved? No wonder you have no time for me." "I've been busy. Look I'll see you tonight, we'll talk more then ok." "Fine Mulder." Scully walked into the apartment and looked back at Mulder amused. Mulder had the hugest grin on his face as he walked in the door with his anniversary present, a 1 year old German Shepherd. "Kaja." He said as he sat on the couch. "Huh?" "Kaja. Kaja Scully-Mulder. That's her name. It fits her perfectly." Mulder said kissing the big dog on the nose lovingly. "Something tells me I'm going to get jealous of this dog. She not sleeping in our room no matter what you say." "Aw but Scully" "No Mulder." Scully said handing him Kaja's bedding and heading towards the study. 11 p.m. Mulder knocked on the door gently and ran his fingers through his hair. Skyler opened the door quickly, he knew who it was, and what he wanted. Mulder looked at him, the air between them crackled with intensity, then he grabbed him and pushed him down on the couch. In minutes they were undressed and Mulder was gently stroking Skyler's bulging cock while he put on a condom. He kissed him hard, his tongue raping his mouth, then he flipped him over on his stomach. He held his head down against the cushions as he entered him slowly. "Man you drive me crazy Skyler" he said, his voice husky with need as he started to thrust into him. Skyler's moans of pleasure were drowned out by the cushions on the couch as Mulder reached around and rhythmically stroked his cock. Both men came hard and collapsed on each other in a sated, sweaty mess. "Do you love her?" Skyler asked breathlessly. "Yes, very much." "Then why are you here?" "She doesn't satisfy me the way you do." Mulder said stroking the man's back lovingly and getting off him. "I have to go, she'll wonder where I am." "I don't like this Mulder. I'm not your whore. If we're going to have a relationship, then we're going to have a relationship, not this halfass shit we got now. I'm really into you. I want more." "I can't give you more than this." "Then I want this more. Not just whenever you feel the urge." "Fine here, here's my pager number. You page me when you want me to come over ok?" Mulder said handing him his pager number and kissing him hard. He pulled away and dressed. "Mulder? Will . . ." "Skyler please, I love my wife. Don't ask me for something I can't give." Mulder said rising and leaving quickly. I really need to end this, its getting too complicated Mulder thought as he started his car. Mulder fell into bed, he smelled of sweat and sex. Scully sighed, Mulder is sleeping with some one else? My Mulder? My Mulder is cheating on me? I don't . . . I can't believe that. Mulder pulled her closer to him and sighed. "I love you Scully. I love you so much. I don't know what I'd do without you." He kissed her gently behind her ear and snuggled into the crook of her neck. Five weeks later. "Where were you last night Mulder? I paged you, you never answered." "I was busy." "Busy? Busy? You say I should page you when I want to reach you, then you don't answer my pages. What's up with that?" "Skyler look. I'm a married man. I can't just drop everything and come screw you. Look Sky, I've been thinking maybe we should stop this. I'm just using you, and you really deserve better. You deserve more that I can give you. I think it's best if you don't call me anymore." "Mulder you can't . . ." "I am, I just did Good bye Skyler." "This isn't over Mulder." 3 p.m. Skyler rang the bell and waited. This is petty. Get over it, he dumped you. Did you actually think he was going to leave her for you? Scully answered the door warily. "Yes?" "Hi, is Mulder around?" "No he's not." "Good, we need to talk." Skyler said pushing into the apartment. Scully reached around to her back for her gun. "You won't need that Mrs. Mulder. I won't hurt you. My name is Skyler Wilson and I just wanted to see what he left me for." "Left you?" "Yes, your husband and I have been seeing each other." "Seeing each other?" " Is there an echo in the room? Yes, We were lovers up until this morning actually." "Lovers? You definitely have the wrong Mulder." "No Fox William Mulder. FBI agent, about 6'1, great swimmers body, he has a mole on his right cheek." "My husband and you . . . I can't believe that." "Believe this then, he has a delectable bottom lip just begging to be suckled. A bullet wound on his left shoulder that you gave him. He told me about that one night last week. He was being drugged and you shot him . . ." "Stop that's enough. I don't want to hear anymore." "Why not? Can't believe it? Oh come on you know he hasn't been faithful to you these past few months. Don't you wonder where he goes at those strange hours in the night?" "He's answering pages, he . . ." "Pages I sent him. His pager number is 555-7723 ID to page 06-16 you're wedding day." "No! No! Can't be." "He was such a good lover too. He's had practice, I am definitely not his first. That man can suck cock like . . ." "Shut up and get out now before I blow your head off." Scully said cocking her gun and aiming it at Skyler's head. "Just tell him I said goodbye and no hard feelings. I'm really going to miss him." Scully squeezed the trigger a little and Skyler rushed out of the door. Scully crumpled to the floor. God no, not this. Why Mulder, why? Was I not good enough for you? Didn't I satisfy you? Tears fell from her eyes as she balled up in the corner and cried. "Scully? Scully, why's it so dark in here? Scully?" Mulder said as he came through the door. Kaja came up to him, her huge tail beating into his leg. "Hey Kaja baby, where's mommy? Up." Kaja hopped up placing her paws on his shoulders. Mulder hugged the big dog, kissing her on the nose and scratching her behind the ear. "Alright get down. Scully?" "In the kitchen Mulder." She sounded strange, Mulder took off his jacket and went to her quickly. "Scully, you alright?" "No, I'm not. I had great news for you then I met someone." "Who? Did they hurt you? Who were they?" Mulder said reaching out to her, Scully pulled away from him. "Scully what is it?" "I met your lover this afternoon Mulder. Skyler Wilson." Oh no Mulder thought "Scully wait, let me explain . . ." "There is no need. I've been told everything I needed to know and then some. I want you to tell me why?" "I . . ." "I want the truth Mulder. Why did you find the need to go outside of our marriage to satisfy yourself, not with another woman but a man, A MAN!" "Scully please I was curious. I . . ." "Curious? Curious? You're a married man, A Married man Mulder. You shouldn't be curious! Curious? Don't give me that bullshit you sorry Son of a Bitch. Was I not good enough for you? Were you using me? How long has this been going on? How many other men have you slept with?" "Scully . . ." "Damn it Mulder answer me!" "Me and Skyler have been seeing each other for about 4 months. I broke up with him because I want to be with you." Scully turned away from him, Mulder inched towards her, "I wasn't using you. I truly love you, I was just curious. I've been extremely, well extremely horny lately. I wanted, I needed more than you could give me. I'm sorry I hurt you." "How many more have there been?" "I haven't cheated on you with anyone other than Skyler. I don't know why now, I just wanted . . ." "Wanted? You wanted? What about me, what I wanted? Doesn't that mean anything to you, you selfish sorry ass bastard!!" "Scully look at me. I'm sorry, it's over, let's start again. I want you and only you, you know that. I love you." Mulder said coming up behind her, wrapping his arms around her. Scully growled in anger and elbowed him hard in the ribs, then quickly whirling around and punching him hard in the jaw. Mulder fell to the floor stunned "You stupid selfish fucking bastard how could you!!!" Scully said quickly grabbing a kitchen chair and bringing it down hard over Mulder's head. Mulder groaned in pain and crumpled on the floor in shock. After a few moments of darkness, Mulder groaned her name when he heard her walking around in the kitchen. "I'm going to stay with my mom for a while. I need to think Mulder." "No!" Mulder said getting to his feet shakily, "No Scully please don't leave me." "What?! Do you expect me to pretend this never happened? That you didn't cheat on me? That you didn't go out and fuck some guy cause you weren't getting enough at home?" "Scully no! I will not let you leave me!" Mulder said trapping her against the kitchen sink. "I love you too much. I've invested too much of myself into you. You're the reason I continue, you're the reason I'm alive right now, you're the reason I broke it off with him. I love you, I want to work on us!" "You have a funny way of showing it, now let me go." Scully said hitting him hard in the chest, squirming and kicking, trying to get away from him. Mulder grabbed her wrists firmly, Scully yelped from surprise. Mulder looked at her, his eyes dark with want and captured her lips with his. Scully tried to pull away but Mulder pulled her arms behind her, pulling her closer, deepening the kiss. Scully slowly stopped fighting and Mulder released her hands and held then with one, while the other undid her pants and pushed down her underwear. "Mulder? Why? I loved you why?" Mulder undid his pants and pushed them and his boxers down. "I'm so sorry, I was stupid, I wasn't thinking. I promise it will never happen again. I love you Scully. It wasn't you, it was never your fault." Mulder said his voice choked with tears as he bent a little and entered her slowly, lifting her with him. Scully wrapped her legs around him and held him close to her. Mulder put his free hand against the cabinets and started to thrust into her gently. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Please don't leave Scully. Please don't leave me. I need you Scully, please I love you. I need you. Don't leave me. Please stay, stay with me. We can work this out, please. I promise I won't stray again, I promise. I can't lose you. I'm not complete without you, I need you with me to ground me. Please save me from myself. Please stay, please don't leave me." His tears forged rivers down his face. He released her hands and she wiped his tears away. "Please, Please." Mulder whimpered softly. Scully kissed him tenderly on the lips, the kiss growing with intensity as their climax neared. Mulder screamed her name as he came and looked at her, hopeful as he put her down, pulling out of her. "Mulder, I'll call you." Scully said pulling up her underwear and zipping up her pants. Mulder broke down in inconsolable sobs, collapsing into a ball on the kitchen floor, shaking with each sob. "Scully please, please don't leave me!" "Mulder, I need sometime to think things through. This is a lot to decide, to think about. I need time alone to think. I'm sorry, I'll call you every night. We need to talk but I can't . . .Bye Mulder." "Oh God Scully! I'm sorry! Please come back! Oh God! Don't leave me Scully!!" Mulder screamed his voice ragged with sobs, tears mixed with snot from his running nose as he wiped his face. Scully looked at him, then picked up her suitcase and left. Kaja came over to Mulder and licked his face. Mulder grabbed the dog tightly and cried into her fur, hugging her tightly. Kaja laid her head down on his shoulder and leaned into him, staying till he fell asleep. 1 week later FBI headquarters "How's Scully's Mom doing?" "Huh?" Mulder said snapping out of the fog he was in. "Scully's mom? She was sick that's why Scully's not here. How is she?" "She's doing a little better, she just needed Scully there." "Something wrong Agent Mulder?" Mulder looked at the AD, who looked back at the younger man with concern. Mulder's eyes filled with tears. "I'm fine sir." "You are not fine Mulder. What's wrong?" Skinner said placing a comforting hand on Mulder's shoulder. Mulder crumpled, burying his face in his hands as he sobbed. "Mulder? What's wrong? Something with Mrs. Scully? Or Scully?" "She's gone. I've lost her forever and it's all my fault. I'm such a sorry bastard." Mulder said rising and grabbing his jacket trying to leave. Skinner grabbed his arm and turning him to him, "Mulder! What? Who's gone?" "Get off me Sir, just leave me alone!" Mulder said wrenching away from him, running to the stairs. "Agent Mulder!" Skinner said sighing heavily, "Crazy. I can't wait till Scully gets back" He muttered under his breath as he left Mulder's office. Later that night Mulder picked up the phone on the first ring. "Scully?" "No Fox this is your mother. Are you alright, you sound sick." "I am sick Mom. I need to go, I'm expecting a call." "You called me sounding so lost last night, and now you can't tell me what's wrong?" Mulder sighed heavily, "What's wrong Fox?" "Scully left me mom. I did something really stupid and I don't know how to get her back. Mom I love her, I need her so much. I can't lose her or I'll die." "Don't say things like that Fox please. You're all I have left. She's just upset, she'll come back when she cools off. She loves you very much dear. You couldn't have done anything that bad. What was it? You wreck her car or something?" " I cheated on her. I slept with some one else." The silence on the other line was deafening. "Mom?" "How could you Fox!" "I know mom." "No, you don't know. That's the worse thing you could have done. Even if she does forgive you, the trust is gone. It will take years for the trust to come back, if it ever does. Oh Fox, why honey, why'd you do it?" "I was . . I don't know. I wanted the thrill, I felt . . . I'm almost 40 years old Mom, I didn't feel attractive anymore, I wanted some variety. I don't know, it just happened. I was being selfish and immature and now it has cost me the most precious and important thing in my life. I need to go mom, some one's beeping in, it could be her." "Ok son I'll call you later. We can talk some more." Mulder clicked over. "Scully?" "Who was on the other line?" "My mother." The silence roared in Mulder's ears, " I . . . drank myself into a stupor last night and called her. I was lost, I didn't know what else to do. I had a nice long talk with her answering machine. I miss you." "I miss you too." "When are you coming home?" "I don't know." "I love you." "I wish I could believe that, but I don't trust you anymore Mulder." Mulder stayed silent for a second, listening to the background music Scully had on. "I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you. I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you." Mulder sang softly to her. "Mulder why? Just tell me why?" "I felt old, I didn't feel attractive" "God Mulder you know better than that. You know I think you're the most beautiful man in the world." Mulder chuckled into the phone and continued "I felt tied down, I wanted to be free. I was being selfish and immature. I realized it too late." "Would you have ever told me?" "No." "Why not?" "I don't have a death wish Scully. I didn't want to cause you pain." " Are you aware of how badly you hurt me Mulder?" "Yes." "I feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest and stomped on. Like my soul has been torn in two. I feel empty. You were my life Mulder. My life. I need to go." "Scully wait please. Let's talk some more." "No Mulder good bye." The dial tone buzzed in his ear and he hung up the phone. Kaja hopped on the bed and laid her big head on his chest. "You still love me, don't you Kaja?" Kaja licked his nose, Mulder smiled and kissed her back. "I love you too Kaja." 3 weeks later " Scully?" "Yeah it's me. How are you doing Mulder?" "Awful. I miss you. Are you coming home soon?" "Yes." Mulder exhaled heavily "Thank God." "Mulder I have to tell you something." "Yes anything?" "The good news I was going to tell you before I met . . . Skyler." "I could use some more good news, shoot." "I'm pregnant. I'm 12 weeks pregnant now." "Pregnant? But how? You're . . ." "I know. I don't know how, but I am. Look Mulder, I want a father for our child. I want her father in her life. I don't trust you, but I'm willing to try us again, with counseling. I think we can bounce back from this." "Thank you Scully. Thank you." Next evening Mulder opened the door quickly and kissed her soundly on the lips and hugged her gently. Scully was unresponsive in his arms. "I made your favorite, Chinese take out." Scully smiled and walked back to the bedroom, putting away her suitcase. After dinner, Mulder sat next to her on the couch and looked at her with loving eyes. "Mulder? How many other guys have you slept with?" "Scully . . ." "Just answer me." "Two, no three, Skyler makes three." "When?" "My first was my basketball coach in high school. I was 17, curious" he said adding extra emphasis on curious, "I was naive. Then there was Patterson." "Patterson, Bill Patterson? Patterson from BSU?" "Yes" "Wow, then Skyler. Did you use protect . . ." "Yes always." Mulder reached his hand tentatively towards her stomach. He looked at Scully for approval, stopping when he found none. Mulder started to get up, when he felt her grab his hand and place it on her stomach. Mulder smiled shyly, his smile widening when he felt the baby move. "The baby moved!" He said excitedly "Yeah." "You called the baby her on the phone. Are you sure it's a girl?" "No, I just feel she is." Mulder smiled "Our Daughter. What are we going to name her?" "Jade Fox Mulder." Mulder looked at her and smiled with pride. "Jade Fox? After all I've done you'd consider naming our daughter after me?" "Well by the time she's born, I was hoping some of the tension would be gone. That I had some measure of trust in you again. This is going to take work. I have to know you're in it for the long haul." "Yes I am." 2 years later Scully reluctantly let go of his hand and cut the cake. It was his idea after we finished counseling to renew our wedding vows. So here we are, on the beach at Martha's vineyard at his father's old house, the Justice of the peace, our therapist, our mothers, Kaja and our beautiful 15 month old daughter Jade Fox, watching me feed him wedding cake. After I walked out that day, I never thought I'd be here again, able to trust and love him like I had before. I kissed the tips of his fingers as I ate the piece of cake he offered me. The smile that spread on his face was priceless. Seven years, I can't imagine what life would have been like without seeing him ever again. Now I don't have to. "My love, let nothing come between us. My love for you is strong and true." He whispered to me that night as he carried me up to our bedroom. We hadn't made love since we reconciled, that was also his idea. He touched me tenderly, relearning me with just the tips of his fingers. "I love you Scully. I love you." he whispered as he entered me gently and for the first time in two years I believed him. 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