Subject: *NEW* "The Gift of Words" Date: Thu, 21 DEC 95 23:42:25 -0500 I wasn't going to attempt a Christmas X-File story. After all, this time of year is just =too= hectic! And besides, if you're going to do a seasonal story, you're almost =forced= to deal with the issue of what they would buy each other for Christmas. And who knows what the answer to that question might be! Well, I'm going to take a stab at answering it. :) This is a continuation of the "Word" series. In this version of the XF universe, Mulder and Scully are a couple. A very recent couple. Needless to say, these characters are in no way mine. Instead, they belong to CC, 1013, and Fox. I hope they don't mind my borrowing them for awhile. I also hope that all of you out there enjoy the happiest and most blessed of holidays. Thanks especially to all the terrific writers and readers who have taken the time to drop me a line. People like Juliettt, Charlotte, Jess, Lis, Nicole, Cherie, Connie and Heathyr make this a very rewarding place to hang out. As always, comments are deeply appreciated. You can reach me at krasch@delphi.com. Take care. I hope you like it. The Gift of Words By Karen Rasch "So, Mulder, are you bucking for the role of Ebenezer Scrooge again this year?" Fox Mulder looked up from his computer screen to spy his partner juggling two styrofoam cups and a stack of files. Manuevering with a deftness that would have put any of a number of professional waitstaff to shame, she shouldered her way through their office door, and with one swing of her shapely hips, shut the portal behind her. "If I am, what does that make you? The Ghost of Christmas Past?" She deposited the manila folders on her desk and crossed towards him, still in possession of the cups, one now at her lips, the other outstretched towards him. "Not Past, I wouldn't think. Present, maybe?" He nodded and took the drink from her. Judging by its color and bubbles, he tentatively identified it as champagne. "And Future?" he ventured, the question obviously in reference to something other than Dickens. She smiled at him, her eyes warm. "If I have anything to say about it." He smiled back at her, then took a sip. Good call, Sherlock. Definitely champagne. The office Christmas party must be in full swing. Scully perched a hip on his desk, and gazed at him thoughtfully. He looked right back at her, enjoying the view. Even now, after more than two years of working together and nearly a month after deciding to take their professional relationship one step further, he still couldn't get enough of her. It seemed like every time he looked at her he rediscovered for the first time just how beautiful she was. Now was no exception. She peered at him over the rim of her cup, her blue eyes soft, her auburn hair styled in its usual attractive bob. He found himself watching her throat as she swallowed, admiring its graceful line, and noting with satisfaction that the tiny hairline scars that had lingered so stubbornly were at long last nearly invisible. She wore a slim black suit with, as perhaps her concession to the holiday, a deep forest green shell beneath it. The green brought out her eyes' teal undertones. "Are you sure you wouldn't like to go upstairs and make an appearance?" she asked after finishing the sip. "People were asking about you." He grimaced at her, the effect leavened by the wry twist of his lips. "I bet I can guess what they were asking." She set her glass down, and said mildly, "You'd be surprised. The holidays can do amazing things for peoples' personalities." He folded his arms across his chest and sat back in his chair, his eyebrows lifted sardonically. "Not to mention the champagne." Her lips tightened in annoyance. At times like this she really wanted to throttle the man on the other side of the desk. She knew that he had been hurt by many of the people celebrating a floor above, that they had often ridiculed his ideas, slammed his unorthodox methods and interests. And yet, not all of them were guilty of such slights. Some of their fellow agents actually admired Mulder's drive, his maverick streak of independence. Not that he would believe that. Not without firsthand proof. Which was awfully difficult to come by when the two parties kept their distance. But, Mulder was a big boy. She wouldn't push him. She respected the boundaries he set. "I just thought you might actually enjoy yourself if you gave it half a chance. That's all." He shook his head. "Scully, the only thing that might lure me to a Bureau Christmas party would be the off chance of cornering you under the mistletoe." That comment earned him a raised eyebrow. He smiled with mock innocence. "However," he continued, leaning forward once more, his elbows planted on the desk beside her thigh, his eyes growing speculative. "As it's just you and me behind closed doors, maybe we don't need that little sprig of green." She tried hard to be stern, but her lips kept curving up in a bemused smile. "Mulder, we agreed. Not on company time." He glanced at his watch. "It's after five. We're officially off the clock," he coaxed softly, coming out of his chair with his palms pressed against the desk top so that his face hovered close to her's. "Come on, Scully. It's the Friday before Christmas. We're not assigned to a case. Hell--Skinner has even taken off for the weekend. What could it hurt?" "I don't know . . . ," she said, the look in her eyes and the gentle touch of her hand on his cheek belying the hesitancy in her voice. "Somehow it doesn't seem entirely . . . . professional to do that sort of thing in the office." His hand found the hem of her skirt and worried it between his fingers, the whisper light glide of them against her stockinged thigh a subtle tease. "You've got an entire bullpen full of drunken agents one floor above you, and you're worried about a little kiss tarnishing the Bureau's image?" Her lips quirked. "Another danger to be considered. You say you don't want to go to the party--but what if the party decides to come to you?" He bent his head and kissed her earlobe, not above stepping up the physical coercion. "It's for times like these that God created locks." With a meaningful look over his shoulder, he crossed to the door and threw the deadbolt. Scully continued to sit on his desk, sipping what remained of her champagne, watching him. And waiting. Her legs were crossed, one slim ankle turning lazily. With measured step, he returned to her side, and placed his hands on her upper arms, caging her body with his against the desk. He smiled an anticipatory smile, his hazel eyes heavy-lidded, and lowered his head. Just a heartbeat before contact, she stopped him by placing a hand on his chest, her smile a tad more devilish than his. "Oh, and Mulder? One more thing." Her voice was low, purposefully seductive. "What?" "Who said I'd be satisfied with just 'a little kiss'?" His smile broadened. Then, making a mental note to take special care to satisfy the woman before him, he pressed his lips to her's. They clung, warm and soft, and just a trifle moist. He could detect the faint tang of champagne lingering on her generous mouth, and realized he enjoyed the wine's flavor better this way. Mingled with the sweet taste that belonged only to Dana Scully. They toyed with each other for a time, playfully dueling with teeth and tongue, until finally desire began to get the upper hand. His fingers tunneled roughly through her hair, tilting her head back to adjust for his height. She went with him, unresisting, her hands gripping the front of his charcoal suit for balance. The stroking of his tongue against hers grew slower, more deliberately provocative. She moaned into his mouth, and returned the caress, the wet slide of her tongue over his teeth inducing an almost painful shiver down his spine. The kiss turned drugging, neither of them wanting it to end., but both knowing that if it didn't, they would soon be past the point of no return. Scully found the willpower to pull free first, and trailing her lips across Mulder's cheek to his ear, whispered, "I wish you were coming with me this weekend." He pulled back to look at her, his breathing more than just a bit ragged, his face flushed. Her eyes were luminous in the office's shadowed light, and large, a touch of desire still fogging them. For one perilous second, he was so tempted-- so =very= tempted--to say yes. But reason prevailed. "Scully, we've been through this--" he began with a heavy sigh. She shushed him with a fingertip on his full lower lip. "I know, I know. And I'm sorry. I don't mean to nag you, but I promised my mom I'd ask one last time. Although, for what it's worth, Mulder. I should probably tell you--I wouldn't mind having you there myself." Margaret Scully had invited Mulder to be part of the Scully family Christmas. She had done this not knowing of the change that had taken place in his relationship with her daughter. Instead, she had merely not wanted him to be alone over the holidays. Mulder had declined the invitation for a number of reasons. "What makes you think your mother would allow you to 'have me' under her roof?" She traced his mouth with her forefinger, a dry smile gracing her lips. "=You= are possessed of a singularly prurient mind." He nodded, grinning with satisfaction. "And damn proud of it." She gave him a quick, noisy kiss. "=And= incorrigible. Even so, I know everyone would love for you to spend the holiday with us. You're sure you won't reconsider?" He shook his head. Much as he loved his partner, there was no way in hell he was going to spend that particular Christmas with her clan. Not only were both her brothers due to fly in with their families, undoubtedly to link up with god only knew how many other relatives. But, it would be the first such holiday without Melissa. He could only imagine how difficult the day would be for those who had been closest to her. He didn't want to be there. Intruding. His presence serving as a sort of silent reminder as to the circumstances of her death. "No. Thank your mom for me, but I've gotta pass," he said, his fingers combing lightly through her hair in an effort to right the damage they had wrought. "Besides--I kept meaning to tell you today, but with first one thing, then another, the timing just never seemed right--um . . . my mom called last night. She wants me to drive up to Connecticut." Scully's eyebrows nearly climbed to her hairline. "She does?" "Yeah. Do you believe it? She wants me to come up for dinner. First time in years. I guess I now understand why they call this the season of miracles." Scully said a silent prayer of thanks. While she would have selfishly welcomed Mulder's strength this particular Christmas, she was more than pleased to hear of his mother's invitation. She knew of the estrangement that had existed between Mulder and his parents for years. And although he never referred to it specifically, she also knew that the separation had pained her partner. If this phone call was any indication, it looked as if maybe he and his mother had rounded a bend in their relationship. Who would have thought it possible? Perhaps something worthwhile could be salvaged from the far too early deaths of William Mulder and Melissa Scully. "That's great," she said softly, her fingers running lightly along his suit's lapels. "Are you heading up there tonight?" "No. This isn't 'Christmas on Walton Mountain.' We're just doing dinner. I figure I'll drive up Monday morning." She smiled at him, aware that his flippant words cloaked some very powerfully felt emotions. He smiled back, tenderness in the look, and pulled her into his arms so that she rested with her head against his chest, needing at that moment to hold her, although he couldn't put his finger on why exactly the need existed. They leaned quietly against each other for a time, his hands running soothingly up and down her back, her arms wound tightly around his waist. "What about you?" he asked finally. "I've got my stuff in the car. I thought I'd take off directly from here." "Oh. Well then, maybe you should get on the road." Regret echoed hollowly in his voice. She leaned back to look him in the eye. "No, not yet. Even with holiday traffic, it's not that long a drive." She then stretched up and kissed him on the chin. "And anyway--we haven't opened our presents yet." Mulder felt his heart expand, then sharply contract. He had been waiting for this. "Presents?" Her eyes narrowed in mock scrutiny. "That doesn't sound too promising, Mulder. And I've been awfully good this year." Her teasing calmed him for a moment. One half of his mouth pulled up in a lop-sided grin. "Relax, Scully. I got you something." "Good," she said with a answering smile as she gave his middle a squeeze and scooted off his desk. "Because I find that I become alarmingly mercenary this time of year." Mulder shook his head with fondness and viewed with appreciation the gentle sway of her hips as she crossed away from him to her side of the room. He just knew that Dana Scully had been one of those kids who shook their parents awake Christmas morning before the sun had even cleared the horizon. The sort who carefully composed their list for Santa, who scrimped and saved their allowance for months in order to buy each of those they loved a very special gift. She caught him looking at her and flashed him a full blown smile. "Well don't just stand there, Mulder. Hand it over." She then sat behind her neatly organized desk and opened the lower right hand drawer. An instant later, a long flat box, approximately the length of a business sized envelope, sat upon her blotter. Brightly colored paper sprinkled with what looked to be angels covered it. A saucy red bow perched on top. Mulder raised his eyebrows in consideration, and battling curiosity and his nerves, went behind his desk where he retrieved a small shopping bag from beneath it. Inside the crisp green paper bag was a medium sized square box wrapped with exceedingly tasteful striped paper. Unfortunately, just looking at it was enough to jumpstart his concern. It's no big deal, Mulder, he tried telling himself. It's just a gift. A token of affection. A wish for the season. It's not as if the fate of the world rested on her reaction to it. No. It was more important than that. Well, if nothing else, the package looked nice, he thought with rueful satisfaction. Thank god for stores that offered their customers free gift wrapping. He glanced up. She sat watching him with unbridled anticipation, her eyes aglow, her elbows resting on the desk, a small smile gently curving her lips. He took a deep breath, his eyes focusing again on the gaily wrapped package before him. This whole gift-giving thing was likely to give him an ulcer. It was crazy, really. After all, it wasn't as if neither of them had ever bought anything for each other before. They had exchanged Christmas gifts in years past. Birthday presents too. But this year was different. This was their first Christmas as lovers. And the gift had to reflect that. Right? Consequently, he had tortured himself for the past two weeks. Had battled the crowds. Suffered rude and inattentive sales clerks. Pounded the pavement on his lunch hour and after work as if he were seeking clues, hoping to singlehandedly solve the crime of the century. When, in reality, all he wanted to find was the ideal present. For her. He thought he had done pretty well. He would know for certain in a matter of minutes. If his heart didn't give out first. "Mulder, would you mind grabbing my cup?" He snapped out of his reverie, and made his way to her, their glasses of rapidly warming champagne and Scully's present in tow. Handing her one of the cups, he set the package down, then made himself comfortable on the corner of her desk. "Who goes first?" she asked lightly, her eyes shining like a little girl's. "You." He had to end this suspense. Had to see what she thought of his choice. Although he never believed for a moment that were she disapppointed, she would consciously allow such emotions to register on her face. Still, he flattered himself that he knew her well enough to be able to truthfully read her reaction. However, right now he wasn't entirely sure that this supposed skill was a good thing. Smiling tightly, he pushed the package towards her. Scully looked at him a bit shyly, picked it up. Some weight, some bulk. And yet, not really heavy. "Can I shake it?" She was certain Mulder paled. "I wouldn't." She raised an eyebrow, the corner of her mouth lifting in tandem. Saying nothing, she thoughtfully turned the box carefully in her hands, while she silently mused over what might be inside. As she did so, the cascade of ribbon crowning the box shifted, and revealed a small golden seal embossed with the logo of one of the capital's most exclusive stores. She sucked in a breath. Oh good lord, Mulder. What have you done? She had gone into that place once. And quickly exited. Their prices were as outrageous as their merchandise was beautiful. "Mulder . . . " she drawled, tipping the box to bring his attention to the seal, admonishing him without words for his extravagance. He shrugged and smiled. "Open it." She eyed him for a beat. Then, shaking her head, she began carefully removing the paper. Normally, she would have simply torn apart the wrappings with relish. But, somehow, when she considered the expense he had apparently borne on her behalf, it seemed rude to rush. Mulder didn't push her. Instead, he just sat there quietly, sipping his champagne. If she didn't just rip the paper off the bloody thing soon, he was going to grab it from her and do it himself! Leave it to Scully to be as methodical with her gift opening as she was with her autopsies. Praying for patience, he managed to get through the process without betraying his agitation. Finally, the box sat naked. Sliding a neatly trimmed nail beneath the flap, she popped it open. At first, she couldn't see anything; tissue paper and thick white pieces of styrofoam obscuring the view. Then, lifting the packing free of the box, she finally discovered what it so painstakingly protected. Mulder had bought her a clock. Although to call it such did the piece a great injustice. For surely it was beautiful enough to be considered art. It was small, the sort of dainty curio that seemd destined to belong to a woman, and rectangular in shape, its case resting on four tiny round wooden feet. It had been constructed from two types of wood, both reddish in tone. She guessed that one of them, the darker of two, the one that composed the piece's inlays, was rosewood. She couldn't be sure of the second. Their finishes had been buffed to a burnished glow that gleamed, even in the office's half light. She was almost afraid to handle the piece for fear of ruining that shine, of leaving fingerprints behind like a common criminal. Etched into the delicate timepiece's surface with meticulous precision and detail was a gently winding vine covered with leaves. The design ran down either side of the clock's front panel, framing the dial. The carving coaxed still more shades from the wood; deeper, nearly black hollows, and golden edges. The dial itself was made of some sort of stone; its color, the palest shade of pink she had ever seen. The shell-like hue completed the wood's warmth. The dial's numbers and rim were both a soft gold. The overall impression the piece gave was one of beauty, elegance, and superb craftsmanship. "Oh, Mulder," she whispered finally, her eyes raising to meet his, their gaze tender. "It's lovely." He had watched her examine the present without moving, very nearly holding his breath as he waited for her verdict. Now that he saw that he had done well with his selection, that he had pleased her, he found himself wanting to confess to her all of the nonsense and anxiety that had gone into choosing the gift in the first place. How he had tromped from store to store, but nothing had ever really hit him, had ever struck him as having been made solely to belong to her. How what had first drawn him to the item in her hands was its color, which reminded him of her hair. How the longer he looked at it, the more right for her it seemed; its grace, size, and beauty, echoes of her own. But ultimately, he only told her the most important thing of all. "In the beginning, I didn't know what to get you," he said quietly, his eyes at first clinging to hers, only to at last slide away. "So I asked myself , 'What is it she wants most?'" Scully gently set the little clock on her desk, and cocked her head as she listened, not certain where he was going with this. "Only it wasn't as easy to narrow down as I thought. The most important things, the things that really matter, I have no power over. Much as I'd like to, I can't bring back your father or Melissa." She nodded, her eyes misting unexpectedly, her throat closing. "And the other . . . the months that you were away . . . . Well, I can't return those to you either." He scowled for a moment, trying to get his thoughts in order, then leaned forward and took her hand, enclosing it in both of his. It lay there smooth and soft, and rather small. And without warning, he was sideswiped by memories of holding her hand under very different circumstances. On the night when he had thought he was saying goodbye. Swallowing past a sudden uncomfortable lump, he continued. "But, I would. I would give you that time, Dana, if I could. If it was mine to give. And . . . and, I just . . . want you to know that. I guess that's what this is supposed to symbolize. I don't know . . . ." She stood then, her eyes filled with tears that would not fall, and took his face in her hands. She kissed him softly, the touch imparting not passion, but love. Still cradling his face, she leaned her forehead against his. "Thank you." "You're welcome." "You know, Mulder, I realize sometimes . . . with everything that's happened over the past couple of years it's easy for me to lose sight of something." "What?" he asked, his voice coming out low and rough, his hands on her waist. "I'm lucky," she whispered, pulling back to look at him, her eyes glistening. "I'm so very lucky." Mulder made a soft, inarticulate sound in the back of his throat, and pulled her into his embrace. She hugged him fiercely, her face buried in the curve of his neck. He found he couldn't say anything. He just held her. It wasn't difficult to do. She felt warm and soft and strong and vital and fragile and . . . necessary--positively essential. She thought =she= was lucky? Well then, . . . hell. What word was there to describe how he felt? After what seemd to Mulder like an unreasonably short period of time, Scully pulled back slightly, kissed him on the cheek, and murmured, "It's your turn." She drew back, and handed him her present. It weighed next to nothing. "Can I shake it?" he asked whimsically, consciously mimicking her earlier question. She smiled, standing beside him as if her anticipation made it impossible to sit. "You can--but it won't tell you anything." He found she was right. "Just open it," she urged with a little push on his shoulder. He smiled over her impatience, and did as she requested. Stripping the paper away, he uncovered a plain white box, which when opened, revealed a bed of soft white cotton. On which rested her cross. "Scully--?" "You know what they say about great minds, Mulder?" she asked softly. "Well, in our case, I think it must be true." He pulled the dainty medallion from its box, cupping it in his hand, studying it as if to discover its secrets. "I also asked myself what it was you wanted most in the world," she continued, taking a step closer to him, her fingers gliding along his upper arm, the touch soothing. "And when I came up with the answer, like you, I realized I couldn't give it to you." He looked up, knowing immediately to what she referred. "I couldn't stick a bow on Samantha and put her under your Christmas tree," she said, regret and nearly bottomless compassion darkening her blue eyes. "But, I came to see that I could give you my promise to help you continue the search, my pledge that together we'll find her." "How can you be so sure?" he asked, his voice sounding potholed and a bit lost, his eyes shadowed. "I mean . . . it's my search, you know? My . . . quest. And yet sometimes, I wonder whether the whole thing isn't just some sort of cosmic snipe hunt." "That's what this is for," she whispered, laying her hand over his so that they nestled the cross between them. "Faith. I'm not talking about Catholic faith, or any kind of organized religion really, Mulder. I just mean . . . belief." She gently tightened her grip over his hand. "On those days when you question, when it seems like Samantha is farther away than ever. Remember this. Remember that I'm here. That not only do you have your strength to draw on but mine as well. That's my gift to you. Does that make any sense?" He nodded, his eyes lowered once more. Then, he cleared his throat. "What about your mom?" "What about her?" "Well, it's just--this was her gift to you. I don't know if--" "I think she'll approve," she interrupted gently. "After all, she gave it to you once herself, didn't she?" He nodded. "Since you brought up my mom . . . I'd like to tell her about this, if it's all right. About us." His lips stretched in a wry smile, embarassment threatening. "Yeah. Okay--sure." She nodded. "Good. I'd just like her to know, that's all." The smile grew stronger. "I know." She smiled back. "Thank you," he said, placing his hand against her face, his thumb smoothing over her cheekbone. "You're not done yet." "Scully!" She chuckled. "Look in the bottom of the box." He did. Beneath the layer of cotton he found a plain white envelope. After an encouraging nod from his partner, he opened it and began reading the contents. Upon finishing the first couple of sentences, his eyebrows arched. Soon after, a stunned laugh escaped his lips. "You bought me a star!?" Scully laughed outright. This was precisely the reaction she had hoped for. "Can =you= think of a more appropriate gift?" He just looked at her, stunned. "I got the idea from something I saw in the Post," she explained, her smile still wide, her eyes dancing. "It talked about this agency that was authorized to sell stars." "But how?" She shrugged. "I don't really know all the ins and outs of it. I do know it's all supposed to be above board, though. And very official. That little piece of the universe is all yours, Mulder. You should know that I tried to get them to promise that your particular star would be populated. But, the man I talked to said there were no guarantees." He smiled in wonder and shook his head, his eyes still scanning the document before him. "Star #3285497531-0, huh?" "You know, as the new owner you can change that name. Something to think about." "Any suggestions?" "Not the kind that involve names." His smile changed, became more intimate. "Why don't you show me what you have in mind?" Her smile matched his. "I could do that." She kissed him once more. The touch gentle, sweet. Mulder's hands held her loosely to him. "I love you, Mulder," she whispered when she was done, her breath warm upon his face, her arms draped around his neck. He looked at her, the gaze alone a caress. "I'll tell you something, Scully. Something that's proven to me everyday. =I'm= the lucky one." She smiled at him tenderly, and opened her mouth to reply when their interlude was interrupted. "Hey, Mulder! Spooky!" roared a slightly slurred voice from the other side of the door. Mulder grinned mischievously, and put a finger to his lips. Although he couldn't be certain, it sounded as if Special Agent Peter Boyd, one of the VC's finest, had downed more than his share of champagne. Scully smiled wryly and kept quiet also. Their shared silence only earned their office door a knock that threatened to shake it off its hinges. Next, the doorknob was tried. "Come on, man--you in there? Hey, there's a party goin' on upstairs. Why don't you join us? We've got everything you need! Wine, women, song. Hell--somebody even brought mistletoe." "Come on, Pete" urged another much higher voice Mulder couldn't identify. "I told you they weren't here. Let's go back up. Come on--I wanna see if the mistletoe is occupied." A short burst of co-ed laughter followed. And faintly Mulder and Scully could hear the tip-tap of heels receding down the basement's tiled hallway. Scully shook her head and looked at her partner, one eyebrow raised. Mulder smiled, and pulled her more closely to him, reveling in the sleek feel of her , the fresh clean scent of her skin, the humor twinkling in her clear blue eyes. Sorry, Boyd, he thought. Thanks for the offer, but there is no way in hell you have everything I need. "Mistletoe?" he growled softly as he lowered his lips to her's. "We don't need no steekin' mistletoe." Even before their mouths touched, Scully knew with absolute certainty that Mulder was right. THE END *Note* The idea of buying a star for a person came from a number of articles I read a few years back. Apparently, someone came up with the brainstorm of selling off celestial bodies. Unfortunately, I can't remember the details. However, for *some* bizarre reason I =do= remember that Princess Di supposedly received a star as a wedding present. I can't tell you if such purchases are still possible. I only know that the idea stuck in my head as something wildly romantic. And a very fitting present for the FBI's best known stargazer. :) Happy Holidays!